…makes her appearance once again.

It was on Friday, actually. I’ve just been too busy to write about it until now. It wasn’t totally unexpected, I guess, but still a little disappointing.

On Friday, I completed a huge milestone in my undergraduate career: I completed my capstone research study presentation. My group and I had the privilege of conducting research on the public’s knowledge of dementia, and we were able to share our findings with our peers, professors, family and friends on Friday at Marshall University. It was an extremely gratifying day, and I feel proud and accomplished. My period was a month late this cycle, leading my to believe that I might have a bun in the oven, but I never got a positive HPT. In retrospect, I think (since I obviously wasn’t pregnant) it was stress about this presentation that caused me to be late, because as soon as it was over and I stepped off the stage, AF showed up…and forcefully. The timing was unbelievable. Now, there are three days and four final exams standing between me and winter break! I think that once this semester comes to an end, my stress level will decrease and I can focus more on taking care of myself, spending time with my husband and family, and trying to create that bundle of joy I so desperately want. Tuesday can’t come soon enough!

Yesterday, my husband and I went shopping for ovulation tests and prenatal vitamins and supplements. Here’s to hoping, and more waiting! In the meantime, I’ve been taking active steps toward creating a better, healthier, self for baby-making. Among manifold changes I’ve made in my lifestyle, I’ve cut out sugar and soda entirely (which is taking more of a toll on me than I first imagined it would) and I’ve been doing yoga and meditating.

Ever since my husband and I decided that we wanted to begin TTC, I started reading the book What to Expect Before You’re Expecting by Heidi Murkoff, precursor to the famous bestseller What to Expect When You’re Expecting. The book has been a TTC bible for me, basically. I learned everything I know about reproduction and TTC from it, and I learn more and more as I continue to read. Moreover, I absolutely love the fertility charts provided in the back of the book that help you to track your cycle, any HPTs or OTKs yo may be using, BBT charts, and symptoms you may be experiencing.

Furthermore, I created an account on a website called, and it’s also got great resources for helping track your cycle and ovulation. When I entered my information about my cycle, this little box appeared next to my profile:Screen Shot 2017-12-10 at 8.50.41 AMHow cool is that?! Now I’m left imagining how wonderful that would be… A September baby! God, Your will be done.
Are there any other books out there that mothers or mothers-to-be suggest for me?
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Thank you all again for reading and sharing your thoughts with me. You’ve no idea how much inspiration and hope I gather from the online community of women who are also TTC.

Prozac and Pregnancy

Here’s to praying that by this time next year, we can add to our tree an ornament that says “Baby’s First Christmas.”

For the past three years, I have taken up to 10mg of Prozac (fluoxetine) on and off for depression and panic disorder. I tried to get off the Prozac two different times, only to go back on it because the panic attacks returned and became worse. I swear by the stuff, and I’m reluctant to face the prospect of weaning off the SSRI once more in preparation to conceive. However, I’m worried about what some medical professionals say about Fluoxetine’s effects on a developing fetus. It is known that Prozac causes issues in sexual drive and achieving orgasm, but I’ve also learned in the past couple years that when a male takes Prozac for a long time, his sperm count actually decreases. My husband was on Prozac from the time he was fifteen years old until he was thirty-five, and he’s now been off it for a year. I’m not too worried about the implications of the medicine on my husband’s sperm, but I am worried about coming off the Prozac because I don’t want to have panic attacks or be depressed, especially while trying to conceive, but the research that I’ve read isn’t good. For instance, one study conducted in 1997 concluded that women who took fluoxetine ended up having babies prematurely and thus, their infants had lower birth weights than women who were not exposed to fluoxetine. Here’s an excerpt from the study, from the Harvard Mental Health Letter:

As compared with women who took fluoxetine only in early pregnancy, those who took the drug in the last three months suffered more premature deliveries (14.3% versus 4.1%). The birth weight of their children was lower than average, and more of them had to be admitted to special care nurseries (23% versus 9.5%) or showed signs of poor adaptation, especially respiratory difficulty and jitteriness. After correction for the mother’s smoking and drinking, medical illnesses, social class, and use of other therapeutic drugs, their risk was 4.8 times higher for prematurity, 2.6 times higher for admission to a special care nursery, and 8.7 times higher for poor adaptation. Among these children there were also two cases (3%) of pulmonary hypertension, high blood pressure in the arteries that serve the lungs. This potentially dangerous condition occurs at a rate of only one tenth of one percent in the general population.”

Okay… that’s pretty concerning. More research brings more unsettling news, really. Some studies say that it can’t necessarily be concluded that women who take fluoxetine during pregnancy have babies that have malformations or brain defects, but much research shows that at the least, infants of women who take Prozac in the last trimester are born early and have a low birth weight. 

I haven’t done much research on alternatives to Prozac or other SSRIs, as well as their implications for pregnancy and birth. My OB-GYN has suggested a drug called Celexa, and I wondered if any women on here have any experience with this antidepressant? If so, please get in contact with me! I want to know about your experience. 

Furthermore, any women who have any advice about fluoxetine or other antidepressant/anti-panic medications and concerns about using them when trying to conceive, talk to me! I want to know more.



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Hello all! Welcome to my chronicles of being a mama-hopeful!
I created this blog to record my journey of trying to conceive my first child with my husband Joseph. I plan to use this blog to talk about my thoughts and feelings about TTC while being a senior undergraduate student and working part-time.

A little about me:
I’m 24 years old and from a small town in southern West Virginia. I met my husband when I was eighteen and we got married this past summer on July 1, 2017. My husband Joe is 36, and he is a middle-school English teacher. As aforementioned, I’m a college student. I’m currently trying to survive the final two semesters of my Bachelor’s degree in Communication Disorders at Marshall University in Huntington, WV. This is my very first time TTC, and we started in early November. Hoping to get my BFP soon!

I have no special qualifications to write this blog–it is personal in nature and I hope to utilize it as an outlet and more importantly, to reach other women who are also mama-hopefuls. If you are TTC, don’t hesitate to share your thoughts and advice with me! I’m new here, so please be nice. 🙂

Lastly, THANK YOU for visiting and reading!